tension; contradiction

(originally on twt from 7 jun 2023)

need to write a whole essay [still do] for this but i identified that we all live in tension - trying to survive in this world & its machinations, while also trying to change it. & oftentimes to keep surviving, we make choices that don’t serve to change the world in the long run / that keeps the status quo.

but so long as you are cognizant & transparent of this tension (& don’t deny that this cognitive dissonance exists), & you are inching forwards & building capacity to change this unfair world (or helping materially passively), you will then break this tension. we will remake the world.

i don’t think you don’t need to overcompensate abt your strategy of survival & how banal it is. this is especially for ppl working in business/finance/etc… those fields can be useless & are arbitrarily manmade. but it does has value in this world at this moment. you do have the responsibility to unravel that tension.

(28/11/2024) all of this is probably just a rehashing of the concept of dialectics / dialethia of the self, but i need to make my own discovery in my own words for this. will be doing my readings though, definitely.